Adolescent Effusive

*groan*

I'm going to fall apart.
I started an entry last night and never finished it.
So, here's the rest of it:
I'm so sick of people who are "hopeless romantics" when they've never had a serious relationship. All they are is ignorant.
Just because two people love each other doesn't mean they're suddenly perfect. I hate that I have to hesitate to say that I love Jacob even though I know it's true just because some people would jump all over it and say, "No you don't, you're 16!" Okay, Jacob's gotten me through the past year. I think I have a right to love someone who does that. Thank you. Just because I'm a minor doesn't mean I'm incapable of feeling any emotion besides defiance and embarassment. I'm a real person with real feelings reguardless of my age.
Yea, I love Jacob. Yea, he loves me. This creates some awesome feelings. It also makes both of us so frustrated and angry and depressed it's rediculous. And it's not because we have an unhealthy relationship, it's because we're real. We're honest with each other and sometimes it leads to tears and sometimes it leads to being angry.
This is so hard.
No one's going to understand what I'm saying. They probably think I'm saying all of this because our relationship is shit and we're just dragging it out. Congratulations for making assumptions about things you know nothing about if you were thinking that. Bravo.
All I'm trying to convey is how much people don't realize about being in love. It is hard. It's the most powerful emotion known to man. It's made me completely crazy. Sometimes I don't even recognize myself. And it's not always because I'm in tears. Sometimes I do catch myself with a really goofy grin on my face or a glint in my eye I've never seen before. Most of it is good.
I just wish people realized what they were saying when they say things like, "Ohmigod, you and Jacob are so perfect! I want to be just like you guys!" Well, be prepared to cry for seemingly no reason, feel like a coke fiend when you can't talk to him for as long as you want, and be really angry at him sometimes for dominating all of your emotions. That's what love does. I'm not harping on the good, because everyone seems to know that already. I'm just trying to get all of this out of my system.
I love getting compliments for having a healthy, mature relationship with Jacob. I don't like it when people assume it's easy. We were talking about it last night and we agreed we wouldn't want it to be easy. Things are worth so much more when you have to work for it.
Once again, Jacob and ARE happy most of the time. We aren't trying to make a relationship work that has no chance of working. The fact that we can get mad at each other and let each other cry and cry just because the other person is exemplifies how much it really is working way more than the fact that we do all those cutesy teen in love things.
Okay? Does everyone understand????

posted by M.Jazz @ 11:44 AM