Adolescent Effusive

Aha!

So, I had a shit day.
The only good part of it was when I was sitting completely alone in the middle of the auditorium, trying to get my APUS homework done and Alex Marien just made a beeline for me as soon as he was done on stage. He sat next to me for a while and I was crying I was laughing so hard and so was he.
I was thinking about this while I was standing out in the cold, waiting for my mom, and crying tears of frustration. And then it dawned on me.
See, I've been feeling guilty about having this pull towards Alex Marien. Because, hello, I'm someone's girlfriend. And I've been freaking out over it. Why do I always seek out Alex Marien?
I finally realized today that it's not because I'm such a bad girlfriend that I've developed a crush on someone else.
It's because Alex is the only person that makes me laugh as hard and as often as Zac used to by simply being himself. He doesn't crack brilliant jokes or do silly stunts. He doesn't even say much.He's just hilarious in manner. Which is precisely the way that Zac was. I've never met anyone else that just makes me laugh by standing still or by saying hello. Alex is equivilant in awkwardness to Zac, and that's why I enjoy spending time with him so much. I'm not attracted to the kid, for Chrissake.

posted by M.Jazz @ 5:12 PM