Oxymoron
Jacob and I were in his living room last night, listening to the Kara's Flowers CD Sarah made for me and we were just sort of shuffling around "dancing" and it was so unassumingly perfect. The lyrics were accidentally applicable and... It was honestly just....I don't even know how to describe it, but this mindbogglingly intense feeling of well-being and the sense that right now is all that matters. It was so powerful that I actually started crying. I've never cried because I was happy before. Ever. It's something I've never ever ever understood; I thought it was rather oxymoronic and BAM there it is.
It just reminded me why I love my life the way it is. I can be so incredibly negative and whiny and there's just no point in it when my life contains such moments.
It crossed my mind as we were shuffling around Jacob's livingroom that in The Lovely Bones, Suzy sees what her family and friends are doing and gets a lot of pleasure out of seeing them come to a point in their lives when, however long its meant to last for, they feel awesome in spite of her absense. And I was thinking about how, if Zac were to be watching me, I'd really hope he were watching me then.
Aaand....I didn't just spill my guts.
posted by M.Jazz @ 3:56 PM
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