Adolescent Effusive

Peace

All right, I just have to express my appreciation for a certain few people.

-Jacob Matthew Fox...I don't know where he gets off being so amazing. I love him so much I can hardly stand it. I was just listening to Crazy for this Girl by Evan and Jared, and of course the gender in the song is different, but this line just struck me: "He was the one to hold me the night the sky fell down." After the girls left on Sunday, I was just laying on my parents' bed, not looking at anything. He came in, took off his jacket, and just held me without saying anything. No "I'm sorry." No "Are you okay?" He knew enough to know that I didn't want to hear any of those things and that I wouldn't have a response.

-Nick Thompson. Nick, you're my fourth brother. I used to have five and I'd to anything to restore that, but I love you so much and I'm so glad that I still have you. Last night, at the dance, Nick was all dressed up as like...I don't even know, a 1920's cool cat and he was sitting on the floor, and I just sat down next to him and snuggled into his shoulder. He leaned his head on mine and rubbed my back without hesitation. It felt so good to just get all of that affection and know it only means, "Hey, I'm happy to see you."

-Devin Rooney. He is so full of life. It makes me feel so much better to think of him and his benzol peroxide hair and vibrantly blue eyes, bursting out with passionate cries of everything from, "And the polls of the Iraqis who say it was better before!" to "You have come on a most blessed of days!" while throwing down his backpack, whipping out a harmonica, and playing it badly. I get a lot of reassurance about the fairness of life from him. I'm not saying he deserves to live more than Zac did, but I'm saying that, although there are still people like *gfhgfdgbf* who OD on X and live to tell about it and do it again, there are still so many people who are doing something useful with their lives and appreciate living.

-Gurlz...My appreciation for you goes without saying and stretched beyond the ends of the earth. I love you guys more than I could ever express. "In my heart, it's the five of us." Remember that. The five of US. We are one unit. Nothing short of death can break us apart, and even then, we're united. I still feel Zac with me and I know he's with each and every one of you. My thoughts are with you always and I won't ever leave you.

posted by M.Jazz @ 1:22 PM