Adolescent Effusive

Que Sorpresa!

Bush won. Hm. Hm. Hm.
I can honestly say I wasn't expecting it.
I have mixed feelings. I'm glad because, as I've stated, he's Pro-Life. On the other, he's opposed to gay marraige.
Mostly, I'm disappointed. I suppose I should feel good that something auspicious can still happen after Zac's death, but all I feel is remorse that he can't see the candidate he was in favor of elected to office. We had so many conversations about politics.
I was so sure Kerry was going to win. I just kept telling myself, "Well, at least Zac doesn't have to see this." Now he's missing out on good stuff. Don't be sitting there going, "Yea, good for who? The Iraqis?" For one effing time I'm not talking about YOUR political views. Okay? Just shut up. I'm talking about the ones I shared with Zac.
Scarf jumped all over me today when I suggested things for his scholarship. I got all depressed and pissed off, but I shouldn't have. Other people are grieving besides me.
I'm still depressed an pissed off despite this notion.
I went passed locker 1476 today and had an overwhelming urge to touch it, but for some reason I stopped myself. I don't know why.
Mr Lilleck asked me how I was today. I really appreciated it. Everyone else is just like, "New week. Whatevs."
EEEEH!!! Can't wait to see how the first BSP Christmas without Zac goes. Should be an effing blast.

posted by M.Jazz @ 4:37 PM